Long Morning

Strange dreams leave me
Worn thin…
Waking up in a world I wish I
Didn’t recognize I drag myself
Out of the indistinct comfort of
Slumber.
I take a deep breath and hold
It all day, always waiting for that
Painful reminder that I don’t fit.
I’m tired of feeling broken, feeling
The jagged edges sinking in.
I can’t bare to leave the house,
Even on the good days now. I’ve got to
Break the cycle, somehow. But, it
Doesn’t feel like it’s up to me,
Like the world is already
Dancing on the grave I refuse to
Fill.
Just let me sleep one more
Hour, it’s the closest thing to
Denial I can bare without breaking
Down.

Wish the world would just
Leave me be…